The way u look tonight-Tony Bennet
Someday, when i'm awfully low, when the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of u and the way u look tonight.
Oh but u're lovely, with ur smile so warm n ur cheeks so soft
there is nth for me but to love u, just the way u look tonight.
WIth each word ur tenderness grows tearing my fear apart
And tt luff, tt wrinkles ur nose touches my foolish heart.
Lovely, neva neva change keep tt breathless charm
won't u pls arrange it, cos i love u just the way u look tonight.
Just the way u look tonight.
Thank u jing for the song! *muaks*
I know someone will most probably like this song too. =]
My original template is totally gone, I must have hit the delete button or something. Will have to figure out how n where to put the links and my tagboard. Grrr... No more tags for the time being =`( I seriously don't fancy html, it's like greek to me. I think i said this b4.
Tomorrow is the first paper GP!! Good luck everybody! ahh... aiya.. not supposed to be here today, not supposed to here yesterday. Itching to blog. Itching to chat. bleah. Don't really do much chatting either. Weird. Come to think of it, i've reallie wasted my youth on the computer.
It's not the computer. I could b watching the tele now. bah. crazy. Either way i'd still b wasting my youth. I'll b MIA for the next week. *crosses fingers* I hope i can do it. bah. So don't miss me ok? No, i take tt back. Pls miss me ok? Anyway, if anyone of u who reads this needs me, u know where to find me.
Twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what u r.
Up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what u r.
I decided that if it is to b, it's not reallie up to me. heh. I will not fret. I'll just take things as it is. If i fail so b it. This holiday has been good. Not perfect, just good. I feel like i'm in the strolling mode. Strolling along, smelling the pretty lil' flowers, looking at the puffy clouds and listening to the birds. Savouring every bit of holiday atmosphere while it lasts.
I was studying at bk today wif dot. Sat at tt particular seat again n i got to experience, wad i call, "resort mood" again. It's when the sun peeks frm the clouds n shines on u. It's not the kind of blinding or scorching rays. It's the type of beam u see in those shows when a soul gets carried into heaven. Got it? No? Ok, it's the type of light that ET uses to beam u up it's UFO. Anyway, this particular moment is fleeting n can only b experienced at a certain spot. It reminds me of tranquility, serenity, n i feel blissful. I can almost imagine the God smiling at me. Lemme enjoy this while it lasts ya?
Today is totally wasted... I woke up at 10+, ate lunch, went online, walked ard n went back to sleep sheeeeesh. study study study.. concentrate u idiot.. i aim to stay up to finish at least one chpt. Wish me luck. charm where r u?
They came back yesterday, day 10. I miscalculated, thought they'd b back today instead. Great.. need not fret abt meals anymore muahaha. Haiya.. but i can't concentrate with pple at home. bleah. I just can't concentrate. period.
My bro's weird. He's actuallie reading now. gosh.
Lonely Day - Phantom Planet
I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can't go back to bed
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day
I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
=0) my sentiments exactly.
Day 9
So i didn't wake up b4 9, was late again. I got my mama a cd for her bdae, collection of old cheena songs. Reminded me of the times when i took the sch bus to sch in the morning during pri 2. The bus uncle will b playing 9.33 and i'll b hearing all these songs. Not exactly oldies, just not recent. Hope she likes it. Cos erm.. i like it? hahaha. Now what shld i get papa?
Not much of a progress today. xi wang ming tian hui gen hao ba.
They're coming back, gotta pack up my stuff, papers all strewn everywhere. =/
Day 8
Wad day 8? There's no bloody day 8 only j8 n 8 days. 8 is supposed to b lucky ya? Wasted day if u ask me. I made porridge today which almost turned out like cooked rice. lalala~ I think i'll try again tmr.
The Wedding Singer is a nice show to watch again. Let's hope i wake up b4 9 for day 9.
Lesson 8: When cooking porridge, remember to add more water n turn down the fire towards the end. Stir like crazy or u'll get rice sticking to the base of ur pot. Ok, maybe u dun haf to stir like crazy, just remember to stir unless u wanna scrub like crazy later on. Either way u still gotta do something crazy woohoo.. I'm nuts.
I wanna grow old with u - Adam Sandler
I wanna make u smile, whenever u're sad
Carry u ard when ur arthritis is bad.
All i wanna do, is grow old with u.
I'll bring u medicine when ur tummy aches,
Built u a fire when the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could b so nice, growing old with u.
I'll miss u, kiss u, give u my coat when u r cold
Need u, feed u, even let u hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
Put u to bed when u had too much to drink.
Oh i could b the man, tt grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with u.
"there r a few rules I know to b true abt love n marriage: If u don't respect the other person, u're gonna haf a lot of trouble. If u don't know how to compromise, u're gonna have a lot of trouble. If u can't talk openly abt what goes on between u, u're gonna haf a lot of trouble. N if u don't haf a common set of values in life, u're gonna haf a lot of trouble. Ur values must b alike. And the biggest one of those values, Mitch?"
yes?
"Ur belief in the importance of ur marriage."
He sniffed, den closed his eyes for a moment.
"Personally," he sighed, his eyes still closed, "I think marriage is a very impt thing to do, n u're missing a hell of a lot if u dun try it."
Maybe it might b early but i thought it's nice.
It is 1979, a basketball game in the Brandeis gym. The team is doing well, n the student section begins a chant, "We're no.1! We're no.1!" Morrie is sitting nearby. He is puzzled by the cheer. At one pt, in the midst of "We're no.1!" he rises and yells, "What's wrong with being no.2?"
The students look at him. They stop chanting. He sits down, smiling and triumphant.
I like this part. Wat IS wrong wif it? Y the mad rush? Y the mad competition? Y the scramble to be the best?
lesson for day 7: Don't switch on the computer. I don't want to leave, can't bear to leave.
"hey dan chao fan! zui jian dan zui kun nan..." hahaahhahahaha *rolls on floor luffing* my gosh, this song reallie cracks me up even after so many times. I realised tt i'm rather muddled up, i can't tell the date or the day anymore. blur liao... everyday just passes like tt woosh woosh... oh yes.. today i woke up at 9.20, went back to sleep. wake up again still 9.20... sheeesh clock stopped. Went to my rm, clock stopped also. oh yes i'm sleeping in my bros rm now. cos he has curtains which i can draw at night so tt i won't see any err.. thing. 2 stopped at one go. sheeesh bad omen. =0P oh well, off to church tata~
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. U want to do one thing, but u r bound to do something else. Something hurts u, yet y know it shldn't. U take certain things for granted, even when u know u shld neva take anything for granted.
A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wresting match." He laughs. "Yes, u could describe life tt way."
So which side wins? I ask?
"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins. Love always wins."
Excerpt frm Tuesdays with Morrie
Day 6
I decided to b good to myself today n eat rice for dinner. Yesterday was sushi, the day b4 was cup noodles not filling, shld stop eating junk. I couldn't sleep last night. After i went offline, i was reading this book n it made me tear like crazy.
Tuedays wif Morrie by Mitch Albom, great book about life. It isn't sad really, just couldn't help it. So I spent the day with swollen eyes. I was suppose to meet Char at 9am, do u think i will wake up at 9am after sleeping so late? She didn't, so i got a morning call at 7.30am. I admit i'm a habitual latecomer. I'm really really sorry to all the sweeties who had to wait for me. Back to the topic, she woke me up alright but the thing is i accidently went back to sleep. Really.. it was an accident. The next time i opened my eyes was to her sms at 9.40. It screamed, "Where r u?! I'm alone here n i feel like an idiot." or something like tt. I didn't take my own sweet time to leave the house k, i just wasn't in a hurry tts all, was all groggy. =P She smsed me to get sweets ard 10 and i let slip abt the mentos being frm my fridge. So she found out i was still at home n screamed at me again. Too used to it.
Today's lesson goes to anyone who needs to wake tabbie up. From the wise words of Char(oh, she'll b so delighted if she knew i called her wise) : "Next time i'm calling u at every 15min intervals!"
Day 5
Up at 12noon. argh.. waking up later n later.. sheeeesh. Went for lunch. I realised they had used evaporated milk cans as ashtrays. I was thinking: wow gd service. Then i finally understood y. Cos of the implemented fine for littering/spitting/dropping tissue/flicking cigarette ash all thanks to the SARS situation. Left for cca.
gong cha, gong cha, kiak kiak (x2) mervin shld know wad this is. sushi sushi yummy. back home again. Took down, washed, hung, folded, ironed clothes. If i had to buy groceries, cook, wash, sweep, mop, nag, work, bring kid to n frm sch, i think i will die. Mother's are great.
Lesson for today: Appreciate all house-makers. Overwrked n underpaid.
pretentious pretentious...
I studied at charm's hse today. Studying wif them is different. U don't feel tt hyped competitiveness or stressful atmosphere. The feeling of being egged on to work hard together rather than that of competing to see who studies faster or who completes their work first. I really hate it when pple strive so hard to beat their frens in acadamic work. Those who find glee in knowing tt their pals haven't completed their wrk when they have already done theirs. Those who constantly ask how much i've done so that they can beat me to it. Pple who freak like crazy cos they see another person studying. I really don't understand. Sometimes i get detect tt kinda vibe in pple.*frowns* It's damn disgusting. Maybe i'm over-sensitive. Maybe it's their motivational strength. My gosh.. here i am typing abt it n here comes this *toot* who examplifies wad i've been typing. Buzz off buzz off. I wonder wads up wif him. The last time he msged me was to ask me for my ao chi grades after lying to me abt his. I detest u man this is not the first time u lied. Now he's tellin me tt he saw his classmate studying n he got pressurised cos tt fren of his probably finished studying already. I wouldn't tell the whole world abt my pte conversations but this is just too sick. I haf to let it out. wads this, everything is so coincidental.
Lesson for today: Remember to empty the rubbish bin.
My parents called!!! yay~ I heard my bro too, he sounded funnie though. lalala~ happie =)
"...knowing cynism, an embrace of the idea that everything is staged, that feelings are shallow, that the difference b/w life n simulation is insignificant."
This line struck me today. How true. All's a stage. Feelings are shallow. Nothing is to b trusted.
"underneath the veneer of civilised cooperation is the putrid stink of how horribly devious, selfish and untrustworthy we really are"
I can't believe i found this in a compre passage.
Day 3
Woken up by the sound of rain drumming on the windows. Yes!!! I closed them muaaahaaha. Lesson learnt. Brushed my gigi n proceeded to feed the fishy. Thought i'd feed it pieces of prawn today instead of the live fishes. Using a toothpick stabbed (so violet huh) into one of the pieces n dangled it over the fish tank "come get it fishy". Bad move. With a swish of it's tail it swam over, erm leaped(??) and bit my hand!!! AHhhhhh!!! Stupid fish stupid fish. Now i know it's teeth cuts into flesh. Lesson for today:Never put ur hand into the fish tank.
Went back to st nicks. bah, forgot to bring my specs along. Weeee missed the environment. Air is fresher, surroundings are greener and cooler, canteen is bigger, more spacious and haf 2 crappy jrs wif me. I saw sn, hao jiu bu jian, braces summore. Went down for snco prac. Not bad... Seems like alot of pple. Their set piece sounds abit disturbing to me. A too-noisy-for comfort piece...yes this is coming frm a person who creates alot of noise. My tcher-in-charge gave me the bu shuang face again. bleah. Fine, I'm not back to visit u. snco jia you for syf~
Today is my parents' birthday... So cool to have their birthday's on the same day. But they're not here, n i haven't got them any pressies yet =/ Wonder how they're doing. Must b having fun. tsk tsk.
Happy bdae mama n papa!~
Account of day 2
Woken at 7am by the violent banging of window blinds. Turns out that the window in my parents bedroom was opened. Raining arhhhhh~~ Scrambled up to shut them, knocked down the huge "crystal ball" on my father's table. Just imagine a marble magnified 50 times bounching on the floor. The neighbours must reallie hate me for making such a ruckus so early in the morn. Luckily my floor tiles aren't made of ceremic or they'll b a real huge crack. Went back to b sleep, to early to b up. Lesson learnt today: Always remember to close the windows b4 i sleep.
-Ring Ring- -zhen qiao ke shi mei yuan-
Watched "Bruce Almighty", not bad really. I enjoyed it plus the last bit was quite touching. Been catching movies consecutively every Mon maybe should watch "Finding Nemo" next mon?
Dot stayed over. Watched 'Returners', (i thought it'll b some gangster flick, ended up becoming a show abt ET wanting to go home) and disc one of 'Chinese Ghost Story'. (too typical, figured it would b a waste of our time watching disc 2) We ended up talking abt friends till 3am. Interesting? I dunno...
By the way, my attempt at using the washing machine was successful! clean clothes! heh. *shakes own hand*
Today marks the first day out of ten days tt i'm home alone. So far so gd. Not wailing for mama yet. The house is to silent so i left the tv on to keep me company. Felt a little bit empty when i woke up this morning to find no one at home. Hmm.. gotta get used to this. Luckily had dottie over today. This 10 days would b a test of mah survival skills muahahaa... Actuallie its nth just not used to being alone. Decided not to catch Ju-on yet, i'll definately freak out at night and there'll b no one ard. *shivers* I'm proud to say tt i hung the clothes out to dry n folded and ironed them today. wahahaha.. no big deal. Tmr i shall attempt to use da washing machine, not tt i haven't done it before but the last time i did it was.... erm... last time. Let's hope i still remember how to operate it.
hei se you mo - zhou jie lun
nan guo shi ying wei men le hen jiu
shi yin wei xiang le tai duo shi xin li qi le zuo yong
ni shuo ku xiao chang chang pei zhe ni
zai yi qi you dian mian qiang gai bu gai xian zai xiu le wo
bu xiang tai duo
wo xiang yi ding shi wo ting cuo nong cuo gao cuo
bai tuo wo xiang shi ni de nao dai you wen ti
shui bian shuo shuo
qi shi wo zao yi jing cai tou kan tou bu xiang duo shuo
zhi shi wo pa yan lei zhang bu zhu
bu dong ni de hei se you mo
xiang tong que you zai kao dao wo
shuo san ni xiang hen jiu le ba
wo bu xiang cai chuan ni
dang zuo shi ni kai de wan xiao
xiang tong que you zai kao dao wo
shuo san ni xiang hen jiu le ba
bai gei ni de hei se you mo
shuo san ni xiang le hen jiu le ba
wo de ren zhen bai gei hei se you mo.
Ahhhhh.... so nice. *scream* I was so captivated by the song when i saw him perform on the piano. By the song ah, not by Jay chou. woops... yz dun kill me pls. It's quite an old song hmm, call me slow i dun care.. I'm gonna listen to it again n again n again. =0)
"bu dong ni de hei se you mo..."
I heard a veri funnie conversation from a guy talking on his hp while i was in the bus. This was what i heard:
"I look terrible today...The top of my face...Above my forehead.. Ya. my hair. N my cheeks r sagging (*rolls my eyes*). Maybe i shld cast a glamour spell on me (what??!!!) but then i'll still look ugly blah blah blah.." I was luffing like mad inside. For your info, the guy was not bad, sure he's not drop-dead-gorgeous but he looks fine to me lor. I can't believe what he said. Guys can b so vain heh. Oh and i saw my pri 4 classmate, he didn't recognise me but i recognised him all right. I can't remember his name though. He's soooo tall now! He used to be like way shorter. Even shorter than me. I feel like some auntie exclaiming "wah.. ur boy grow so tall liao ah." haha kinda weird. Seemed like he suddenly changed so much and i failed to realise that i would probably have changed alot too. How fast time, surrounding, people change without me noticing. I have changed without me noticing.
Today i went to the arcade to look for my bro, n i saw a mum guiding her lil kid(ard 5?) at a game. The game was 2 babies fighting (seen it?). I was kinda shocked, isn't this encouraging violence? I mentioned that i watched matrix rite? It's quite violent too dun ya think. He just walks in n guns everyone down. Would that lil boy would grow up to think tt violence is acceptable? Overprotecting is also not a viable option really. So what happens?
Some pple just dun click. Different wavelengths? Just plain different probably. There will b nothing to say, nothing to share, nothing to know. Even the presence would b no different from 2 strangers sitting side by side in the mrt. How weird.
I've concluded that i've got "funny" wavelength. There aren't many pple really know me. Who am i anyway? Close friends? I can't even b sure. Why do i move away? Distance myself from it all.
Tabbie u poor lil' weirdo.
Here's a photo i've been looking for, it's a picture of the boy next door.
And i loved him more than words could say, neva knew it till he moved away.
Faded pictures in my scrapbk, just thought i'd take one more look.
And recall when we were all in the neighbourhood.
I meant to study. But i didn't.
I meant to keep awake. But i didn't.
I meant to not feel this way. But i still do.
I meant to b better. But i wasn't.
I meant to do so many things.
Maybe i just wasn't meant to.
We're all here but yet we dun seem to notice the presence.
I feel tt it's all fiction. Make believe. Yet, making believe works for me. Sometimes i need escape, this is my best alternative.
I'm not an unhappy person. I have no reason to be. I dunno why. I dunno what.
Dreams r amazing. It threads all my thoughts, my feelings, my fears, my experiences and comes out in an entirely new plot.
I had a dream last night. I remember snippets of it, quite awful i must say. I dunno what happened but i still remember the crying. The blurring of my vision, the dread. Funnily, i hope i dream it again. I want to know what happens. part II?
You know what? Great. Cos i dunno.
I caught matrix today!! It's so cool!~ Chim show yet not over chim show.. I like it. Gotta catch it again to fill up the parts i missed. The fight scenes r real slick but seemed abit repetitive. To give us a betta look perhaps? That guy with the french accent was not bad. I especially found that part of his conversation witty. His wife also depicted a very human characteristic when she requested a kiss frm Neo. The human nature of wanting to relive a particular treasured moment. I find it impossible. Typical of humans, to want the unattainable.
The whole show was filled wif philosophical talk. Do machines ctrl us or do we ctrl machines. What is ctrl? We make them do wrk so we ctrl them. We rely on them to keep us alive so does that mean they ctrl us? It's all a matter of cause n effect. We do not make the choice. The choice is already made, we r meant to just understand that choice. Some things neva change, some things do. We r here for a purpose. We have to realise tt purpose.
I find the reply to certain qns in the show particularly useful for future use: "Y? Because it is so."
Looked out for something that isn't there n will not b there. Hope? Silly me. Detached.
Snip snip snip snip snip snip snip snip...all gone.
The look of love by Dusty Springfield
The look of love is in ur eyes, the look ur heart can't disguise.
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could eva say
What my heart has heard well it takes my breath away
i can hardly wait to hold u feel my arms around u
How long I haf waited, waited just to hold u now tt i've found u
You've got the look of love is in your eyes, the look tt time can't erase
Tonight, tonight would this b the start of many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow n then seal it wif a kiss
I can hardly wait to hold u feel my arms ard u
How long I haf waited, waited just to hold u now tt i haf found u
Don't eva go.
I actuallie tried typing this twice but each time, i accidently hit the power switch on my keyboard when attempting to hit the delete button so i neva got to complete the entry. Finally here it is. Lost for words these few days so no blog entry.
SAT on sat is fun... Guess, shade, guess, shade... Felt like i was buying 4D, many many many slips of 4D. It's quite similar ain't it? Guess the winning no. for 4D, guess the answer for SAT... Wooo... rhymes or is it just me.
Went to amk ctrl for lunch wif char and wenyi too bad charm couldn't come.. fun. Ate green tea ice-cream frm kfc. It tasted like anlene milk. (I dun like anlene milk) So if u dun like anlene milk, don't try it. Walked ard. I'm gonna watch matrix reloaded.. woo~~ I hope. N i wanna watch Bruce Almighty... I gave up on Xmen2, I guess i'll catch it 2 yrs on the tele.
Holidays... no i mean study break just started... wee~ mug agl mug like crazy..jia you jia you! *waves pom poms*
You've got a friend by Cliff Richards
When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights.
Chorus:
You just call out my name,
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yeah baby
To see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend.
If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
And soon I will be knocking upon your door.
Chorus
Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend?
People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but don't you let them.
Chorus
You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend?
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend?
You've got a friend.
*clutches hairbrush*
"u just call out my name n u knoe where eva i am i'll come running to see u again..." a little tipsy. higgley piggley jiggley wiggley..hickery dickory doc, the mouse went up the clock. The clock struck one, the mouse ran down, hickory dickory doc.
Life. A binomial distribution? Allowance for only 2 options, either a success-P or a failure-Q. A poisson distribution? The chances of either being a P or Q lasts till infinity. One mistake n u're a Q. Once a Q always a Q. Ps don't mix with Qs. Born a Q? You know tts not right Then what is right? What is wrong? Don't they seem just like Ps n Qs.