Thursday, August 26, 2004
I'm home again...Sunday, August 22, 2004
I dunno y this stupid post looked like a ransom letta. oh wad the heck. -delete-Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Lost In You - Garth BrooksThere's no more waiting, holding out for love
You r my god-sent out of heaven, foreva here in love
My angel from above
Heaven knows i'm head over heels n it shows
I played every field i suppose
but there's something abt u when u're around baby i have found i get lost... in u
What is this feeling i've neva known before
Tt i shld dare to swear unto surrender evermore
tt's wad i came here for
Heaven knows i'm head over heels n it shows
I played every field i suppose
But there's something abt u when you're ard baby i have found i get lost in ur wonderful gaze
lost in ur wonderful ways
Sunday, August 15, 2004
My Happy Ending -Avril LavigneSo much for my happy ending Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did? Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead
Held up so high On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult But so are they
But they don't know me Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...So much for my happy ending
Saturday, August 14, 2004
There r certain unpleasent circumstances tt u can't change, but when u view them at different angles they may b potential learning opportunities or blessings in disguise. So for now i'll try hard to remember tt CS is not easy to get in, n in the first place i wasn't supposed to b here, but was given a chance to -- by fluke? I've been paying attention to my punctuation; all thanks to BMW (Basic Media Writing)course. Improved? I'm trying to incorporate all the punctions into this particular entry. I found out through this course tt this, &, is called an ampersand. Commas r very tricky tadpoles to add to phrases, and brackets r also known as paranthesis. No fancy paranthesis anymore so it's gdbye {[]}. I also learnt how to make use if the semicolons(;), dashes(--), datelines (-) n hyphens (-). heh, double vision? It's the same, just used in different context. I wonder y they didn't teach us all these when we were younger. The compound, complex, compound-complex, independent, dependent sentences all seem clearer now.Another thing i've learnt is tt news writing requires to follow the K.I.S.S. rule. No not the smoochies; the Keep It Short n Sweet rule. Which means tt words such as: 'transportation' would become 'transport', participate=>take part, manufacture=>make, alternative=>other... This effectively means tt all the inculcation of using wide vocab for essays in pri n sec sch is redundant. They shldn't haf made us learn all those. humph. It's like going back to basics. Sounds like some tagline -- back to basics. My tut mate said to me today: "The pple who survive in uni r those who unlearn den learn." I'll haf to delete all i've known n start all over.
In the lect Intro to comm studies, there's a section on conflicts; how to deal wif them etc. N there's this part abt the active constructive way in response to conflict is by 'Voice', the passive constructive way is 'Loyalty'. The destructive active way is to 'Exit' and the destructive passive way is 'Neglect'. So for now, i've voiced it out so it's just loyalty tts left to fulfill. "The loyalty response is staying committed to a relationship despite differences. ..involves hoping tt things will get betta on their own." Communication Mosiacs by Julia T Wood is an interesting read!
I should try less hard to please. It's so tiring. N i shld b resolved to letting things come my way.
Monday, August 09, 2004
Happy 39th Birthday Sg!I can imagine me waving my lil sg flag infrnt of my television set, and can't help noticing the different atmosphere of the tv frm my home. They haf what, probably a few thousands over there while it's just solitary me n me flag. This yr i din get to sing a single national day song yet. bah. I remembered last yr i went for ndp. Couldn't reallie see the performers on the field, but what matters was the atmosphere. Everyone singing their lungs out, clapping their 'clappers', waving their flags. My family has this 'tradition' of going to see the firewrks on national day. We'd travel all the way to kallang just sit outside the stadium like several others just to get a glimpse of the firewrks. It's a long wait and the ideal spot is always taken up cos u'd b surprise by the no. of pple who dun haf tix into the stadium but haf the same 'tradition'. Actually, going all the way there to watch the firewrks live is reallie no big deal cos i could just wait for our lovely neighbours across the causeway to set of some (n they do it real often) n i could just watch it at the comfort of my own home. But i think it's the fact tt it's a family outing tt makes the journey worthwhile. This yr, they went fishing wif my extended family since yesterday. i opted out cos it's a rush to return to hall. so i'm here. alone. I did want to see the firewrks over at marina bay but well. nvm. I supposed to get alot of things but it din occur to me tt the shops would b closed today n i shld haf gotten them yesterday. damn.
It's unnerving when u're so near n yet so far. N i'm so bottled up n i can't say it.
Home alone again...
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Feel - Robbie WilliamsCome and hold my hand I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a languageI don't understand
I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love I'm preparing to leave her
Scare myself to death That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life Running through my veins Going to waste
And I need to feel Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough
I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much loveRunning through my veins To go to waste
I just wanna feel Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul You can see it in my face It's a real big place
Come and hold my hand I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
He has this enchanting voice n alluring style of singing. And the bad boy image goes oh so well. I will get a cd one day!
He
He can turn the tides and calm the angry sea,
He alone decides who writes a symphony.
He lights every star tt makes the darkness bright,
He keeps watch all through the long n lonely nite.
He still finds the time to hear a child's first prayer,
Saints or sinners call and always find him there.
Though it makes him sad to see the way we live,
He'll always say, I forgive.
This always gets me teary eyed.
I've been thinking abt learning sign language. Suddenly been noticing alot of pple communicating wif it. No, my aim is not to eavesdrop(eyesdrop?!), it's just fascinating how so many words can b converted to hand gestures. N it's a gd way to talk softly in the quiet discussion rms in the lib. Personally, i believe there's no such thing as quiet discussions. If it's a discussion, (especially wif regards to ones wif opposing viewpts) it's gonna b loud wif hands wildly flapping ard to perhaps add emphasis to the pt put across. Wif sign language, i can still b flapping wildly minus the decibels thus giving quiet discussions a whole new perspective. I probably shldn't use 'flapping wildly' cos it's insulting to sign language, on the contrary it looks rather professional the way i see them do it. I'm thinking it'll make 'i'm gonna take a crap' look pleasent. I dun think they haf vulgarities.... oh... wrong, they can just use those common hand gestures.
Anyone seen any sign lang courses ard? cos i haven't. Even if i do learn it, seems like no one i knoe to practise it with. Another one of those, i-once-wanted-to-pick-up skills.
I'm trying to b optimistic wif sch n lessons n life. I'm no whiney baby!! Sometimes i think maybe it's betta for me not to start complaining to someone, cos if tt someones hears one there'll b many more to come. N i end up convincing myself tt "i suck at it/my day sucks/sch sucks" thru repetitive reinforcement. N tt someone would probably b quite bothered n wish i'd shut up.
Sch's not tt bad u noe. I got a wonderful roomate. And at least i got pple to escort me ard so far, the only time i had to go alone in search of the sch's bkshop i got lost. I can't even find my way wif the map in hand. Guess 'Navigating' as an eca is out for me. Did i mention they dun haf badminton/tabletennis/basketball/soccer in their list of ecas? How perculiar. Not many pple came to solicit me during the eca fair. Humph. Probably got tired of it liao n i was there pretty late. There's this silly club called the 'hobbies club' or something where u sit ard n play scrabble/uno/boardgames which u haf to pay the membership fees there n den. They must b really hard up for members. *ponders* I wonder whether they can sue me for defamation. Got talked into joining co again, not by the pple mending the booth mind u, but by st nicks frens. Peer pressure. I seriously think the pple at the booth weren't veri frenly, for one they din even bother to persuade me. The guy just handed me the form n din even tell me wads pracs were like, wad to expect. bleah. Unlike the pple at the Catholic apostlate club n the tennis recre club, so happens tt the guy who was talking at the tennis recre booth was frm cath apostlate too, it felt somehow felt more warm n more forthcoming and yet not hardsell like the iceskating club person. Who even used "iceskaters haf veri nice figures, haha but not me la... look at the others there'" as a selling pt. Erm... pass. Shld knoe wad i ended signing up for. I seriously did consider Chinese drums but wenyi was rite abt their drums not sounding veri pleasing to the ear adding to the stiff expression they had to gif. Community service was another one under scrutiny. But at the end of it all, everything boils down to, 'mei ren pei wo!'. Succumbed to peer pressure again.