Friday, June 30, 2006
Even if it means lying to myself. I guess I'm entitled to a little bit of zi zuo duo qin to make myself feel happier. silly billy goat.Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Runaway - The CorrsSay it's true, there's nothing like me and you
I'm not alone, tell me that you feel it to.
And I would run away
I would run away... Yeah, yeah.
I would run away.
I would run away with you
Cause I am falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop
Falling in love with you
Close the door, lay down upon the floor
And by candlelight, make love to me through the night.
Cause I have run away
I have run away... Yeah, yeah.
I have run away
I have run away with you.
I so wanna run away. I will content myself with running ahead.
I felt that this song was so beautiful, after hearing it being sung by the lady at Acidbar.
Maybe it was jus the mood of the place and the lighting that made the atmosphere just right such that the song still lingers in my mind.
Everything has to be just right... When will everything be just right for me? Or rather alright for me.
Make it all go away please.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
I realise that there are so many people with beautiful voices. It's a gift that cannot be cultivated from nothing.I feel that I have nothing, nothing, nothing. =(
When I know should be appreciative of everything.
Waiting for the next milestone for this holidays...
Five Hundred twenty five thounsand six hundred minutes,
Five Hundred twenty five thounsand moments so dear,
Five Hundred twenty five thounsand six hundred minutes,
how do you measure,measure a year,
in daylights, in sunsets,
in midnights and cups of coffee,
in inches, in miles and laughter and strife,
in five Hundred twenty five thounsand six hundred minutes,
how do you measure, a year in the life.
how about love, measure in love, remember the love, seasons of love.
Friday, June 23, 2006
The end of the 4 days at CommunicAsia/BroadcastAsia 2006. I was working as a delegate registrar wif ms lala. where we get to meet the occasional shuai ge ang mohs (2?3?) and swipe credit cards. I've held mastercard, visa card, amex, plat cards. I neva knew there were so many different types of cards. Not to mention the business cards we've collected. Oh and there's the kick of holding wades of 50 dollar notes in ur hand. N i fulfilled my long time dream of issuing receipts! We met so many directors and hotshots but to us they were but a registration number. Plus we get to have lunch provided and snack on the leftover food from the refreshments during the conference breaks.When there was no one around we'd chit-chat, played bingo, hangman and pictionary.
Minus the legache from the standing (not that we couldn't sit but the chair was uncomfy) and the ugly vest (which looked much nicer after 4 days), the low pay and the fact that I had to reach expo at 7:30am. This must have been the best job i ever had. Maybe cause I quite like being in the Customer service line where people come to you for enquiries and when I can help them it gives me a sense of satisfaction. And besides I get to wrk with a friend, that's the best perk.
Today, after work we went to visit the exhibitions. At CommunicAsia, Handled the newest gadgets and handphones that have yet to be released. The most interesting phone model I tried was the one where u wear this contraption on your finger and stick it in ur ear, and you can hear your phone because it uses vibrations of your finger bone to send sound waves to your ear drums. How cool is that? Next time instead of people walking around seemingly talking to themselves because of the wireless headsets we'd have people seemingly digging their ears whilst talking to themselves.
We had a ball of a time over there. *wink wink*
Over at BroadcastAsia they had all the state of the art broadcasting equipment like cameras, recording equipment, tripods and what-have-yous. But couldn't really appreciate all of them cos too state of the art liao! I was thinking, there I was feeling bored because I couldn't appreciate the stuff, but the EBM-ers in school would gladly trade places with me la. Hah!
I'm reminded to be grateful for everything I have now. Everyone around me now.
I make my own happiness and everyday I learn something new.
Unconditional? or Irrational?
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I've boogied to the bombay beat and did the Swing of the 40s! Something self-planned materialised. *beam*Of course, special thanks to ms lala who graciously accompanied me.
Met a volunteer for the CDAC and asked her why she did volunteerism, she said to me "I found that life has not much meaning, that's why i signed up..." Wpah wpah wpah. My life has not much meaning either. Maybe i should sign up too! Hah, or probably jus look for tt meaning.
People we spent almost a whole day with, chatting, finding out about each other's lives. Yet, we might never meet ever again. I thot it was quite sad. We don't leave any menas of contact, not an email address or contact number. We couldn't even master a false promise of "See you again!" because we know that's quite impossible.
Tragic.
Had bad bad thots today. BAaad.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
I thought I had things all planned out... All thought out... All feelings sorted out... And sudden turn of events leave me quite lost and quite disoriented.It makes me rethink n rethink n rethink...
It's me being my confused self. Wif conflicting behaviour and conflicting thoughts.
Should I jus do what I feel like doing?
Just act on a whim... everything is secondary.
I wanna get that back again.
When she said 'Yes'. She suffered. And continued to, till the last day. But she never did once complain.
Happy birthday Mummy & Daddy.
Happy Father's Day Daddy! =)
Friday, June 16, 2006
Nothing much has happened.Actually come to think of it... everyday is something new.
Garfield gave me a hug. Is that good or is that good?
Tt's good. And you know y i wuv garfield? Cos he's a cat. And cats don't judge you like people do. And cats don't walk out on you. One day, i'll get myself a cat.
Excited about the coming week. With registration in both sense of the word. I hope i get what I want. Although i already don't much of a choice, never really did. I don't usually get what I want. But it flows naturally. Hopefully.
Oh, hope i get a seat.
I kinda wonder how things have been going on. I dunno whether to ask or not. To ask would be to show concern which I makes me feel weak somehow. To not ask makes me curious and makes me feel like a bad person. I don't wanna be a bad person.
Everything hinges on that. My choice.
Succumbed to temptation again.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
There's a ultra humongous pimple... no, I think I should call it a zit growing on me forehead!! argh. Now it looks like someone hit me with a pole and I have a wad i call a "balooku" on my head. And it hurts when I touch it or even when I raise my eyebrow. I have neva had such a big balooku on my head. Sheeesh. Zit! begone!Any tips on how to banish it?
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Day out with the girlies... First wif melissa weeny kueh ambon to golden mile complex to check out the tour agencies, lala the mega kueh ambon was as usual late. =P Ok, I was late too but I was there in the end! So i wanna still have my status as tiny kueh ambon.Anyway while we were there we just grabbed brochures and went so funny that we didn't even enquire. Then it was off to Raffles City to meet lala. Walked around. Stopped often in the middle of nowhere to decide on stuff like where we shld go next, whether to have a snack. Are we wishy-washy or wad?
Next took a train down to Orchard to meet PC. We were early so we hung ard the train station and we saw some 02 people. Wad a coincidence. Were they having a class outing too? Waved from afar. We were bored I guess so we started gossipping and making bitchy statements like "oh, will they think our turnout is bad? Should we hold a banner to say girls nite out only?" etc etc.
PC came and we stood around deciding where to have dinner again. Decided on Pepper lunch. Yum yum yum. Talked over dinner. Updates on each other's life, all aspects. Not giving any juicy details here, believe me there were a few. After that we walked around. Stood around, deciding where to go next. again.
We ended up squeezing on a bench outside kino, taking photos, talking abt the people inside kino.
Then PC had to head home, we walked her back to the station then decided on playing Mahjong overnight at lala's place. Arranged to have Lisa as our "fourth leg" later on.
But first we met Stef, who rushed down from work to meet us at Acid Bar. Nice cosy place. With my favourite... Singers! They sounded so good. I think it's cool to be a lounge singer. I wanna be one, first I need a guitarist/pianist (and poof goes my dream bubble). Anyway Stef treated us to Calamari and french fries yums. And I had a glass of tomato juice which all of them gave that "eww" face when they took a sip out of my glass. what? tomato juice nice wad. So i returned them the look when i tasted their drinks. Ew. I just can't appreciate the smell of alcohol.
We took a cab down to meet lisa cos we were rather late. On the way I think we were all 'high', yes me high on tomato juice, we started making silly comments and laughing in the cab, with the mystic ball and the no more birds talk. From the rear view mirror, I even spotted the cab uncle um chio-ing at us. I guess we made him happy. Cause when the 3 of us got off and said bye to stef the uncle also joined in the waving and byebye-ing.=P
Met lisa, poor girl had to wait so long for us, then we hopped onto the LRT and woosh...fwd. Mahjong time. weee~ Mahjong was great. I think i laughed too much. And we lasted through the night, all 4 of us.
People say that mahjong without playing with money "where got fun?", obviously they haven't tried mahjong with cookies. Or maybe it's just me not liking the idea of playing around with hard-earned money.
I had a wonderful day with you all girls =) Days like these are hard to come by.
Now i think I haf a 'hangover'.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I'm so proud of you... for beating the odds.I'm so proud of you... keeping ur cool.
I'm so proud of you!~
Hee...
Monday, June 05, 2006
I read my past posts... n i felt nothing. I even felt ashamed and think why the hell did i feel that way then. Kind of childish in a way. Does it mean i've grown out of it? Will I grow out of this one?Man likes to think he's at the pinnacle of his life at that point of time. I'm but only human.
Look further girl, you have a long way to go. Be hopeful girl, because as the Revlon people like to say "You're worth it".
But it keeps me entertained no doubt. As you can tell I'm a narcissist. I talk to myself. And I love my own writing. I can read it over n over and over again. Weee~
Oh what the heck, i'll just post one more for my reading pleasure.
Found out an unwanted person reading my blog. Had to add another dash to it. That's the danger of putting it up on the WWW, but tt's the exciting bit too for me. If you know it you would get what i mean. I gave it to you in confidence, if you revealed it without my knowledge i will hate you forever. muahhaa. i think there's a fine line between giving someone the link and someone having chanced upon it.
It might haf been a good thing at least I won't get bothered about the issue anymore. But i shudder to think what was read. My secrets! oh! my secrets! *tears at hair*
Oh well... The most I'll contemplate posting some rude remark like "*toot* off you *toot tooot *toot*", if the person reads it again.
*toot* off you understand!
Friday, June 02, 2006
I haven't laughed like that in a long while.It's the giggle for no apparent reason, laugh cos you want to, and make up whatever silly stories that come to your mind high.
Baking, mahjong and Indian polka helps too.
Anyone wants cookies?