I'd love to keep it. But den suddenly i remember wad i was told just yesterday.
If it makes another person happier, why not?
If it makes 2 pple happy, why not?
Why not indeed.
bgy. I must be jus very bgy.
stop being so despo. muahaha.
Time to focus. bah~!
The kitty swiped me in the face... n yet i still wanna get close to it. =(
I meant to do blog this a long time ago but didn't have the time, so here I have to start or else I'd forget.
For the smses... so that I know i'm remembered.
For the necklace... so that I know we're still friends.
For all you people who hid at every nook n cranny of my hall rm to jump up at me,
For the effort you all put in into blowing up the balloons... so that I'd get my party
For the handy laptop bag with matching mousie and vouchers... so that I could carry my lappie ard when I do my prjs and fulfill my wish of getting more clothes.
For the mint-choc cake... cos i like mint.
For the golden heels wif backstraps, the perfume and the chain... so that I can dance in heels.
For the lunch at crystal jade... so tt I won't haf to eat alone.
For the cup wif a hand-drawn pic of a cat... jus becos I like cats.
For the cake that wasn't mine... so tt I'd get a cake.
For egging another to get a candle... so tt I'd get one on the cake.
For the pink bikini... so that I can tan in the sun.
For the pretty skirt... so that i can go gai gai in.
For the pretty bag... so that u all can hide the skirt it. =x
For the curryfish head dinner during my lunar bdae... so tt i'd have a celebration.
For the lovely pendants... so tt i can always carry something to remind me of u all where ever I go. For the choc cheese cake.
For taking the first step... so that it tells me which direction I shld head.
Jus for accompanying me for half a day.
For all these I'm very grateful.
And the thing that always makes me feel special is the thought tt was put into each gift.
I'm alright again. =D
Thanks to the prata cake.
woe is me.
Weakling.
I say it doesn't matter, but actually it means so much, if not i wouldn't have reacted tt way.
Maybe i'm just too demanding or expecting too much.
If I wasn't so stubborn I probably wouldn't have ruined my own day. If i'd given in I wouldn't have to be this way. But I refuse to, cos I shouldn't have to, not this time.
Sometime i was looking fwd to all week.
Disappointed. utterly.
And the basic thing is nobody freaking understands. argh.
I've never idolised any celebrities, never felt the need to. It's just not something i'd do. In the past when my friends go gaga over them. To me it'll be 'ok, he's cute or she's pretty.' N i'll forget all abt it the next day.
Sometimes I feel like the odd one one, n i'd haf to fake being excited over something i'm not.
I'm jus not the jumpy, overactive, bubbly, life-of-the-party n probably never will be.
I do admire pple or even try to be like tt.
But at the end of the day i think, I'm jus not tt. So why try to be what I'm not? At this stage of my life, the personality is supposed to be set yet i'm still like the insecure teen. muahaa.
I know tt I have to appreciate myself b4 anybody will start appreciating me.
I want.... a surprise. *chah!*
Cos I still don't even know what i want. maybeiknoebutit'sjusunfulfillable,nidunnowhetheriwantitifigetit.jajajajaded.
Where r u? Won't u come look for me?
I love outings wif mary chan pok choo and melly chan pok choo. They make me ho ho happy. =)
R u gonna marry me babe?Tv drama serials make me feel like there's no hope... There's too many bitches and bastards ard. hur hur hur.
I know it's too strong a label. But well life's a bitch.
Everybody's running off helter skelter.
Trust is like non existant because no one can be trusted. Years, don't count for shit.
When you're in tt position you can only say tough luck.
Ya. i know u don't mean to, it jus happened. But well, I can say tt I don't mean to either. It's this kind of lame reasons that make me want to roll my eyes. Don't act the victim to make me the bad guy.
I'm such a 'fume cupboard'.
Did i say i cannot stand cutsey? I jus wanna slap them faces. I always think tt there's only so much tt i can take. But I jus keep sucking it in.
Me evil self rears it's ugly head. I am who i am.
The more you yearn for something the more u won't get it.
So I don't want anything... says i want everything.
To reiterate, I don't want anything. Because there's nth tt can replace my everything.
say what?!
I feel like curling into a ball n rolling away.
It's so cold.
And it's getting colder.
I miss the warmth tt once surrounded me.
I didn't mean to fall in love with you...