At the free access lab now. 2 slacking periods. woopie~!! Music blasting in the back...noisy~~ oh oh nice song.
"If you get there b4 i do, don't give up on me, I'll meet you when my chores are through, i don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see but between now and then till i see you again i'll be loving you. Love, me."
Maths lecture was boring.. My eyes were tired half the time I had my eyes closed but i was listening... really. Anyway next was physics lecture, another sleep inducing subject but it was ok, cos Lisa and I were trying to figure out how Missy Elliot's "Work it" goes. It sounded quite stupid when we tried to sing it. Next, we went on to Eminem's "Lose yourself", couldn't get that right either. We ended up combining both of them, just wave your hands like they do in Eminem's MTV and say "Work it, work it." hahaha.
"baby you're all that I want, when you're lying here in my arms. I finding it hard to believe we're in heaven." techno techno, wave your hands, nod your head.
Feeling.... hmm... hard to describe. Excited? Happy? A little afraid that it'll not turn out well. heh. Don't know how it'll go, good? bad? We'll see. Why issit that i always run out of things to say? Counting down... aiya, i think today cannot concentrate. =0) (argh, my eyes hurt)
Yesterday, i wasn't doing nothing for once. I was baking cornflakes cookies with Sj. It was fun!~ Good thing it didn't turn out burnt. A batch of them looked abit "black" but they tasted yummy. Charlene's gonna come over to bake today. Shall try cooking after 'A's ya? Ya lah ya lah, procrastinating again. Mama's gonna make pineapple tarts on Saturday. Woo... I declare this week: "Baking week"
My darling, you came into my life when I was secondary 3. For 3 years, you've been what i've needed, provided me with all the facts and figures. Though you've made me disappointed at times, it can't erase the fact that we've been through thick and thin, gruelling tasks all seem manageable when you're around. Through the years you've always been behind me all the way. I thought our relationship would last for years to come, till this fateful day. I'm sorry i wasn't there to catch you when you fell, it was my fault. I was there and yet i wasn't fast enough. I hope you come around because you are important and I will definately miss you..... my calculator.
Yes yes, I'm lame. In case you didn't know, i dropped my calculator into the toilet bowl. *peers at Stella* I can see you laughing, don't pretend. I'm lazy, don't ask me to explain. So now I can't use it... suay. I'll go 'dissect' it later i hope it'll work. It's ok, as they say jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai. I realised that a science student can't do without a calculator, that's why I can't do any homework today yay~ aiya, it's a stupid excuse but i'll use it anyway. One more week to go through and another and another. At least I have something to look forward to =0).
I'm listening to the cd now. nice. You're cute. Darn cute, cute means cute, don't ask me what cute. There's nothing wrong being cute. I'm cute rite? bahahahah. So don't think u're no good, don't feel all depressed. I'm sorry if i made you doubt yourself or anything. I didn't mean it, though i must admit, i did find joy disturbing you. hee.. sorry lah. If you didn't notice, then ok lor. =0)
Thank you. I dunno what you think about me. I wanted to call but i can't, so i guess this is 2nd best....
Track 20,21. ahahahahahhaahahaha nice~!
I'm really really really really happy today. Can't see it right? I didn't know i was so good at containing my joy. =0) A certain someone made me very happy last night. lalalala~ Would this last? I don't know. I want it to, I hope it would. My day was fine, it was great... there was nothing really special I just woke up to a good start that's all. Oooh yes, we all got a cute little sock from stef to put our handphone in. Thankie Stef. Lectures were ok, I dinnoe what ms tan was saying, i dinnoe wad mrs wong was saying but thats normal.
I must say that consecutive physics and chemistry lectures are darn tiring, don't you think so? During physics prac, it took me so long to setup the experiment and i realised that the thing about prac that i hate most is the retort stand. The clamps just wouldn't clamp, they would keep sliding down, they shouldn't be called clamps. I was daydreaming while letting the ruler oscillate, counting 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. then it stuck me, the question that i have never thought before.... *drumroll* "Why the *toot* are we constantly counting oscillations and plotting straight line graphs?" (Yes, ok, I know the question is not that great but i never gave second thoughts about it mah.) What's the point? Don't tell me physicist spend their lives looking at things performing SHM then plotting graphs. I suddenly felt stupid but it was just for a fleeting moment because i had to get back to my counting. Then it was chem prac. I was mentally drained, whatever mrs wong said i just nodded but i din understand a single word. I found that rather amusing though (Lisa can vouch for that), as if she was speaking a foreign language so i started laughing. madness. Why am i typing all these in the first place? madness. Doesn't matter, what matters is that i'm glad.
Yes.. I know it's been a long time. Don't worry i'm still around. Just not online. I suddenly feel a surge of sadness. Why is this happening? Oh gosh. It sucks. No no I suck. Bah..... i hate this, i hate this. I feel that i've accomplished nothing in my life, nothing then, nothing now, nothing later. It all seems bleak. I want a goal. A goal to work towards. ~sigh~ Short term goal: go to a local uni. Long term goal: get married, be a tai-tai bahahaha, which reminds me, i'm supposed to write an entry about marriage. Aiya lazy. And oh yes, I really meant it when i said in class that I would be disappointed if i don't get married. hahaha. When Mr Wee asked why, I couldn't think of it at that moment, I wanted to say that it'll benefit me but then i thought, that would be a very lousy reason cause wouldn't that be very selfish of me? Then again why do i want it? Someone to 'have and hold'? Someone to share forever with? Is there such a thing as forever? haha cynism cynism... Of course. That's what all the fairy tale books say "And they lived happily ever after." 'True happiness is an illusion. Discuss'. If i really understood this, i would have written it by now, I believe that it's not an illusion, but it will be easier to write that it is an illusion but i'm not contented with that. I guess i never will be.