Thursday, May 27, 2004

I'm back!!! miss me? I miss da comp so much. *muacks* I was gone cos 1stly my comp 'died' the day b4 i left. But it's alive after my upteenth attempts at restarting in safemode it miraculously wrks!! However half my hard disk memory also miraculously got deleted, now where did it go? -_-a
2ndly i went on a 3 day trip to genting n kl, if u knoe gd for u cos i din wanna tell anyone. I wanted to leave w/o letting anyone knowing but well tts not reallie possible. So if u knoe, u're one of the lucky few. But well big deal, it's so short tt it's like i neva left.
Tt was probably wad i wanted. To see whether a short disappearance mattered at all.
I got my long bus trip to think.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

The only event i looked forward to today was the dinner to marche. Marche is just as stated,'A restaurant in a market', more like a market than a restaurant, nth special abt it. I quite enjoyed the outing reallie. Neva reallie had much interactions wif the j3 co members b4 'cept for occasional brief conversations. After the dinner we went over to starbucks at paragon, where all the guys left (someone's fren got into some trouble -shrugs-) n the girls were left to chit-chat. When girls gather, they can reallie talk abt anything under the sun frm the prospects of having 11 children to someone's bank acct having $15,000. Must b the caffeine.

Went back wif XX. The reason y she's XX is cos i dunnoe her name. I've been told many times but it still slips my mind. There r just some things tt dun register in the brain n her name is one of them. Doesn't help tt she lives quite near me n everytime i see her ard i can only say "hey!". -_- i really hope she doesn't find out, i dun mean to forget, i just dun remember.

Oh anyone watched eco-challenge-NZ? Can anyone tell me which team won. the NZs or team eco-internet. I really disliked the show cos it replaced my 'Third watch' police drama. I guess mediacorp chose to screen eco-challenge in conjunction wif the Olympics in Athens 2004, whose symbol is now permanently etched on the left hand corner of the screen when i watch chn 5 --". Eco-challenge reallie one of the most gruelling expeditions, to finish the whole race as a team is an achievement by itself. I felt like crying when i saw the look of their faces when some of them crossed the finishing line. The mixture of relief n jubilation. (I just missed watching which team was first!!!) After witnessing their 12 days of pushing the body to the brink i felt like i was there wif them, just minus the cold, exhausting feeling, fatigue, hunger etc etc. They say everyone shld haf an eco-challenge experience, it's like after u go thru a near death exp u'd treasure live, after u push urself to ur limits u realise there's alot of stuff tt u neva thought u could achieve. However, I'd haf to learn how to ride a bike, trek, navigate, mountain climb etc etc. nah. not in my lifetime. The most funnie thing is the first time i heard of the eco-challenge was on someone's blog a few yrs back n i wondered wads so gd abt wanting to take part in it. I neva thought tt i'd eva find out now. Just for the record, I still want 'The Third watch' to b back!!

My list of must watch on a typical day in chronological order:
-Fingertips (kids ctrl) which they replaced it wif some stupid pet show!
-Jamie Oliver's cooking show/Yan can cook (so can u!)
-days of our lives (Franco's dead! *gasp*)
-Guess, guess, guess/tt chn U entertainment news
-Third watch (bohoo gone!)
-Bionic woman (also gone!! the lady is really pretty)
-Chn 8 reruns at 5.30pm
-Tt 70's show (cracks me up like nobody's business! this has gotta b my fav comedy)
-xi1 you3 ji4 (it's quite silly yet addictive)
In between these i just watch crap. I'm a true blue couch poTAEtoe, poTAtoe.

I'm so high, so i bet ur boots tt tmr it's gonna b a low.

Friday, May 21, 2004

Everybody i come into contact with seems to b having a bad day, me inclusive. But wad bad could haf come out frm doing wad u did yesterday, n the day b4, n the day b4? plenty plenty my dear. The exasperation just keeps piling.
I've become a ferocious red snapper. (dun ask me wads tt, i'm thinking fish) I snap. ROar~ hmm tt doesn't sound rite. I think i've pissed someone off. woopie. bad.

Did i do something wrong?

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

"Impt n yet not urgent."- quote of the day

I like my life tt way, and when my parents pester me to get things done i get agitated. I wanna do things my pace. Tt pace-> slow. I haf my uni application at the back of my mind, it's at the back but believe u me, it's constantly nagging me already. I dun need the added pestering of my parents. I can't help it if they refuse to send me the letta rite? So stop asking me. I'm worried enuff. I noe wad i haf to do n i knoe wads impt.
If they dun ask means they dun care rite? which means if they ask means they do care, so wads up? I'm pissed off by how they're asking. argggggh...

I turned down a chance to earn 64 bucks. rats.
Oh i got a nice sms, i'm ok already =)

Monday, May 17, 2004

The concert yesterday was great!
I love my jnrs!!! n my 2snrs~ *muaaaaaaks* Can't wait for the photos.
Guess this is the end. The finale. =)

Yay~ i'm high now.... thanks~

Saturday, May 15, 2004

If anyone wants to leave, I won't stop them. go. shoo. scram.

How now brown cow?
As u wish jellyfish.

Thursday, May 13, 2004

I feel so bored everyday. Everday i just sit in front of the television n waste my day away. But there's nth else i'd rather b doing. All i look forward in a day is at nite when i can go online n chat wif frens. A little conversation out of the period of isolation throughtout the day, tts all i look forward to. N if i'm forbidden to use the internet just because of some stupid virus tts going ard. I refuse to obey tt.

I've been thinking alot abt myself lately. If u've got the whole day to urself n no one to talk to, it happens. I've realised tt i'm getting lousier by the day. I'm losing it man. Jk brought up the other day tt maybe we shldn't practise so hard cos the more she practises the more she feels she's deproving. Tt got me thinking tt maybe she's right. The more i live my life the more i feel like a wasted existence. I dunno wads happening reallie, i was ok when i was younger, i didn't feel so low den. Back to jk, as a snr i was supposed to say nice encouraging words plus we couldn't afford to b low in morale since the concert was but a few days away, so i told her tt the maybe she wasn't deproving, she was always of the same standard it's just tt along the way through the practices, u realise tt there r bits tt need improving n hence the 'deproving' senario. Tt might b wad i'm feeling too. I was always like tt just tt i din realise tt i've got alot to change. Maybe it's not a need but more of a discontent with myself. I need to b happy with who i am. Just like wad the guy in today's episode of Moulmein High said "I got to b myself" so there u go. I just solved my problem theoretically, now's the practical aspects tt needs wrking on.

I like the show 'Everwood' at 4pm. I've been thinking tt if only i could adopt a more jovial exterior and a sense of humour like Dr. Everwood, i'd b betta off. However, considering tt if u're a leading neurosurgen who can afford to move to an obsecure countryside n provide free consultation(which i'm not), u'd b pretty happy-go-lucky urself. It's the kind of, taking serious things lightly n yet not too lightly. The established equilibrium, the ability to b an all rounder. To cover all grounds, tt'll b nice.

I've picked up a particular irksome habit of cutting pple off when i predict wads gonna b said. Den i'd gif an answer b4 the qns it's asked. argh. veri rude, veri rude. N u know wads the worse thing? I did it during the interview one too many times n i've been feeling real bad abt it. sorry. bah, well u got ur 'revenge'. Maybe i've become less patient wif pple, which isn't a gd thing. But i can't help but notice the underlying motive tt some pple carry when they speak. =( I wished it's just me having wild thoughts, but it's quite accurate. How could i identify hidden agenda if i dinnoe how to use it? Now tts scary, for me.

Friday, May 07, 2004

I'm tired in all aspects.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

I found this written in my notebk while clearing my desk...

7th Jan 2003 15:27:29
The fragrance pure doth pass this way
but once a thousand year
The sound of heart may soon depart
and ne'er be found by fear
Vegabonds who lose their way,
shall lose it yet again.
And something die to dance.
and so shall dance in vain.
So touch the key and take the ring,
but all must understand,
that if heart but hesitate,
the dog shall bite thy hand.


The 1 pdctive thing i did today was to clear up the mess in my rm and sort out the stuff on my desk. Yay.. now i can see a portion of the table top!
I watched Vanhelsing also. wooweee... gd action packed movie. Even my father who tends to sleep thru movies said there was no opportunity for tt. I gif it 2 thumbs and a pinkie up. =)

To do: to wake up early tmr.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Feels like a wasted existence, to wake up everyday ard noon. Sit in frnt of the tele till evening. Den finish the night off sitting in frnt of the comp. argh. This is truly decomposition. But this utterly useless existence is no one's fault but my own. Is retirement like tt? bleah.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Pretty lisa visited me today!~ *grin*

I enjoyed myself. It's the kind of no hurry, peaceful mood. N the kind of impromptu changing of plans to fit the situation to go wif the flow. Couldn't get the 3.50pm tix at ps so agreed to walk to cine to check cathay out. On the way saw pple queuing at the Istana. OOoo...open hse, queued in to take a looksee. Lovely plains of grass and it's like another botanical grdn in there wif labels for the different species of flora n fauna. Thanks to it, I could identify a real jasmine flower. We even got to see the pres on our way in! Lucky us. Mr Wee was absolutely right abt the wasting of space.
Decided to head back to ps to see whether we could get the 5.00pm tix. Tough luck, sold out. Lesson learnt, neva plan to watch a movie during a public holiday. Nvm... we'll check out jubilee since we're gonna b meeting at amk seoul gdn at 7pm. Reached jubilee to realise tt we missed all the available timings n the the next one was at 7.05pm. =`(
Since amk ctrl is a boring place n we had alot of time to kill b4 7. We did the most singaporean thing. We ate. We went to get aj ice actuallie, which is not reallie a logical move for 2 pple cos Aj ice is enormous n meant for a table >2. it was a lil embarrassing when even the aj ice auntie assumed it wasn't for us n brought the mt of ice to the table near ours. While eating we decided to go to amk lib after tt to kill time. den william called to tell us of the dinner cancellation. -_-"
It's ok! We get to watch '50 First dates' at 7.05pm! wohoo! N i save moolah~ Popped by Popular to walk-walk since we had time b4 the show.
Hilarious show, sweet storyline, happy ending.
Dinner at mos. Talked.
I reallie liked the at-ur-own-pace kinda feel outing. Appreciate ur time. Thanks man.