Sunday, October 23, 2005

Thinking back it actuallie seemed quite magical. I still vaguely remember the moments that were special to me. Maybe back in the gd 'ol days we were young n innocent. Everything was new and it was an exciting experience. You even could feel the tingly feeling and anticipation. Neva occured to me that it would be something nice to look back on, i jus relished in the feeling there n then. But i had a sense of foreboding even then, that it wouldn't last long anyway.
Have you ever wondered how wonderful it would be if it continued?
But it wouldn't be wonderful really cos it would have soured eventually the more we got to know it each other. N i prefer to keep more memories happy. In the end, I'd still be hoping for wad was then. Thinking back, i think the reason y it is still mysterious because it was based on pure serendipity. The good thing about it was that it didn't go delve any deeper... Its hard for me to explain, but its jus a kind of feeling that tells me i happy that i went thru it. I jus like that part of it.
Unlike some good memories, I thought i would always remember but i realised they're based on lies. And it jus gets worse the more i think back cos i jus feel stupid and blind. I wish i there is a memory "magiclean" so that i can erase them all away. Feeling manipulated.
I'm smarter now i hope.

All been said n done, nthing beats the present.

by tab at 1:32 AM |