Sunday, March 13, 2005

I must state tt i din get paid for call centre shit work in the end. Nvm.
Long time no blog. Why? Felt like blogging, but the topic i wanted to blog abt led to an inner struggle tt went like this "to blog or not to blog, tt is the qns". Hence, with all the tussling in my mind, it dragged on n on and finally it's 'old news' not worth typing anymore. Sometimes it's better to keep opinions or feelings to yourself, kinda works betta that way. And then sometimes because i've already had an outlet to express, it makes typing here obsolete.
Lack of sleep+stress = sickness. I think it's more of the stress than the sleep. I jus had 4 presentations in a week. Go me. As i've said, i am YIN-VIN-SEE-BEL.

The speech one sorta sucked. I think i'm jus nt cut out to speak infront of a crowd. This is called Social Inhibition my friends! (I think Grace, xiuling and crystal would be nodding their heads in agreement.) I shall include a self-serving bias by adding tt my lack of memory capacity results in me not being able to remember the pts i want to get across hence i haf to keep referring to my script. Muahaha. From speech writing, I realised that i am not good at making transitions and thus my points don't really flow. They r just random globs tt form in my head and my mouth just spits out the chucks without stringing them in nice complete sentences.
I jus finished typing my part for 102 report. I hate report writing cos i hate writing in the first place. Which brings me back to not being able to string nice, flowing, complete sentences and not being able to express my point coherently. It's frustrating when u're unable to get ur point across.

Video shooting is fun in a way. Yet, it's bloody tedious n taking up too much of my time. Wait till i get to editing and website designing, all hell will break loose. Doesn't help that i am an E-diot. crap.

Diss myself entry.

Maybe i've neglected a few pple. Sometimes i can't help it. I dun reallie have enough "Me" time already. And it's become tiring to keep up with work n all. I try as much as i can to show concern, I'd like to think that i am not tt heartless, but it's not reallie in me to do tt. Procrastination hasn't made life any better. I still haven't thought of 103 topic and i haf a presentation on Monday. *cries* Somebody Save Me.

Had a little talk wif mum. Maybe i shld stay at home instead of the hostel. I do miss home n maybe i could help out.

by tab at 2:12 AM |