I'm back~!!! For today n tmr, for flag day. To my lovely wovey frens, pls dun run away when u see me on the streets tmr. Drop by to say hi and do drop some coins in my lil tin can. You. Can do ur bit for charity. 'charity' to me inclusive. *grins* I've neva once did flag day cos i'm seriously agst it. Standing ard begging for coins doesn't seem prdctive enuff as contribution to society. But I want to try it out so i can fully say i've been there done tt and my stand would thus b justifiable. Sch's fine i guess, met alot of people whom i've already seen b4. It's funnie when actuallie i haf alot to say abt it but now when i get down to it i compress everything into a 4 letta F word. Fine. =P Jus tt my bed's so uncomfy n i've got a backache. =(
Joined the Heritage Tour today. Glad i did tt, a lil mornin walk ain't kill nobody in fact its more prdctive den just sleeping the mornin away. It's a gd opportunity to hang out wif sn, wenyi n she ya b4 everyone gets too busy for anything. One of the stops was at the SRC n we took a look-see at the swimming pool. N someone commented outloud tt there wasn't a baby pool. A lifeguard answered, 'Uni already where got baby pool' n everyone burst out in luffter. They've arranged to go swimming soon. Err.. swimming... how abt floating? The marching band display by tk sec was the best. They're coordination n formation was spectacular, we even mistook them as a cca frm the uni. They had a shuttlebus to the original Nanyang Arch. National Monument leh... b4 everyone boarded the bus back we just couldn't resist walking thru it though it was a lil detour frm the original path to the bus, just like our snrs way way way back who used to.
First lecture for today. Freaky to know wads to come.
I hope it was right.
Many haf been reminding me of the long break. So to break the long break, here's some nonsense.
I like the new blogger 'create post' page looks like we haf a giant white space to slab words on, which allows us to explore our creative side. N it doesn't hinder our freedom of expression unlike previously wif it's limited space. Oh wait, could the space b adjusted or something? Who cares. Wad matters is tt i like the current one, it's more user frenly. Speaking of breaks, we've moved on frm 'breaks' but i want to make a detour cos it's gonna b another long break frm here as i'll b saying adios to my computer, my comfy bed, my aircon, my bolster for ard a week and i step into hostel n uni life. My other foot is probably in the grave. I just dun like new beginnings cos it's uncertain. The fear of the unknown. In other words, i'm just afraid to start anew. If all goes well den gd for u, if u start of wif the wrong foot u're doomed for the rest of ur uni days. Ok there's no such thing as 1 wrong move n gdbye uni life, but i believe in 1 wrong move leads to another n another n another even if it doesn't reallie link up, if u're suay they just keep happening, therefore byebye uni life. They say 'u r, wad u believe' if u think u're shit, u're shit. Oh man i feel like shit. I always feel like shit. I remembered there was a time when i din feel like shit cos i din think i was shit. N there was also a time when policemen wore shorts.
Wads up wif 'shit'? If u haf to knoe, I'm not referring literally to excretion, it's just a term to replace a long string of self derogatory terms. Shit's easier to type. shit shit shit shit. I've read tt if u repeat certain ideas to a person, it gets ingrained in them so rather than to further lower my morale by spelling out those terms, i use 'shit' cos it's so abstract. 'shit' for u is different frm 'shit' for me. A 'shitty' day for some uncle might b when he misses striking the top prize for 4D by a permutation "1234?!?! i buy 1243" aiya shit la!", for others "aiya stupid bird shit one me! shit la!", n for mou2 mou2 ren2, everybody keeps quarrelling, new beginning to adapt to, so many things not done, don't haf a clue wads not done, an aimless existance, a failing mind. Shit la! haha. Get my drift?
Some think shit is vulgar eg. "Teacher!! He say bad word! he say..*giggles*.. shit.", to me it's not meant to b vulgar. It's just a nice forceful word to say, as compared to "lollipop", when u're feeling pissed and yet it's not as vulgar as 'F la!'. Provided this word is neva used to scold anyone. But 'F off' can neva b replaced wif 'shit off'. Dun u think 'F' is a multipurpose word? Amazing. A noun, a verb, an adjective. Y am i talking abt vulgarities, i was talking abt.... shit la, must scroll up. lazy. Moving on...
This is for zhang² or shld i say Teoh-zhang *waves* Hi! zhang yu wan!! mai stress... stress hui zhang pimple de wor. stay cool n funky. muahahaha everytime i hear this-->>'stay cool/cute n funky' during dedications over the radio i wanna lmao. It's just a veri hilarious expression as i picture say a cucumber wif hands doing the 'yo yo yo gesture'. Nope, actuallie i just made tt cucumber thing up, i find the expression hard to comprehend and silly tts all. After attending today's co concert, i realised it's been a long time since i've heard it, n i miss co! bohoo. There goes my resolve to not continue wif it.
I have a love-hate relationship wif CO. No la, pure love no hate. N i love my jnrs! I live un-shitty moments wif them.
TWIMC: pls take gd care of urself... bu yao shen bing. yao du shu, dan yao xiang wo ying wei wo hen xiang ni. haha *hugs*
My Immortal - Evanesence
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I have always refused to admit tt this is a beautiful song.
my hands still turn cold n clammy,
my heart still races,
my mind draws a complete blank,
the words i meant to say is still withheld.
N it still hurts enough to make me cry.
but the reason has changed.