Monday, November 04, 2002

Ah... my first bloggie.. bloggie, bloogie, blaggie.. sorry got carried away. I wonder how this works. I'm so IT-unsavvy, the only programmes i can say i know how to use are powerpt and word. Lousy eh? Oh yes i forgot. Happy Deepavali to all. My entries are all gonna be kinda disjointed (so brace yourselves) cause my mind is pretty much disjointed anyway.
Joe says i think alot..no not you yz, it's another Joe. He's been the best thing in my life so far. *frowns* what are you all thinking huh(Casey Goh)? He's a great pal. Funny how someone you've never met can be someone you'd pour your heart out to. I guess it's easier for me. I've never been able to tell anyone so much. Afraid? embaressed? Shy? I dunno. Just weird i guess. Or maybe it's that i haven't the flair to express myself. I'm learning, I'm learning. I've never been good with people, no good at carrying out conversations, no good at making friends. I'm not a people person. Sure i make my friends laugh and all but then i believe that making them happy isn't all there is to it. I have to be able to comfort when they are sad. Say and do things to bring them joy. I have yet to find a friend that knows me well enough. Joe's close to that but i've got a bad feeling that it won't last like every other friendship. Not that we'll have some major argument or anyhing. I'm afraid we'll just drift away. Maybe that's why i dun confide in anybody. They'll leave me eventually. I don't like it. If they are not that close, i won't feel that hurt i guess... I'll continue some other time. I totally lost the momentum to continue.

by tab at 1:33 PM |