It has always been a matter of how much effort you put into what you're doing that determines the outcome. Interest does play a big part, but if you reallie want to excel i say interest can be cultivated if you take the effort.
You say u're dumb, stupid, slow, disadvantaged.
I say, I lack effort.
Now don't you feel better already?
Been thinking about where am i going? What's my purpose in life? Where's the goal?
Have I been avoiding risks?
I'm not trying hard enough. Not experiencing life. Not learning.
I want to look back and think that i've made this life worthwhile.
At any point if i have to leave, i dun want to go with regrets...
I need to seriously plan for the future because the worries are starting to pile up.
We think we have all the time in the world, when actually our time is limited...
When I think of what i'm doing now, it all seems meaningless...
At times it seems I can't live without it, but at times like this I feel like it doesn't matter really.
Carpe Carp "seize the carp" -bucky katt
Went for the snco gathering organised by the jnrs on yesterday. It was a disappointing turnout, but i did have fun talking. It's easier to talk when it's a small group, you get to interact more with everyone. Maybe everyone wasn't informed, maybe the timing and place wasn't convenient. The food tasted not bad Chinese themed? Baos, tangyuans, siewmais, glutinous rice, chinese tea.
It felt good being around them. Very homely feeling, thats how st nicks pple are like i guess. Someone suggested having the gathering back in sch, tts a really good idea for the snrs who haven't been back in a long while.
Talked about shopping, gossiped, sch, life etc. We realised that we're really getting very old i'm already 4 years their snr and the eldest there was 6 years. =/
I don't want to grow up.
Been looking at people around... Been wondering what their lives will b like frm this point onward. Is it my voyeuristic tendency kicking into action or issit the cause watching too much reality tv (trading spouses)? I really wished i would be able to jus sit back n watch as their lives go on. Thinking how nice if i was part of the equation. It's ironic to want to look at others' lives when i have my own life to live.
Sit in front of the mirror, i must.
It's just my way of dealing with people... ambivalent.
Probably what drives them far far away.
You belong to me - Jason WadeSee the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise on the tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me.
See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souveniers
Jus remember when a dream appears
You belong to me.
I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too.
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me.