tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38836842011-12-04T21:09:27.258+08:00Little thoughts. Little wonders. Little considerations.tabnoreply@blogger.comBlogger6051100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3883684.post-27571219166522582832011-03-13T21:07:00.002+08:002011-03-13T21:13:46.286+08:00

I had a wonderful weekend... it must have been the sand, the sea, the view and most of all the family. Even though most of the time we spent lazing in the pool, I believe the time spent together doing absolutely nothing is time well spent. I'm looking forward to more of such trips, afterall you never know whether there will be a a next. What's next?i don't know how I can say goodbye.

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hai. this feeling sucks.

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I'm quarter of a century old plus one day today. To recap on what a wonderful life i have I shall just throw random moments that make me feel blessed.I've got my first pet recently, her name's bing pi cause she's white as snow (if you've seen snow it's not that white, so you will get the drift). She's cute... I always thot hamsters were smelly. Honestly, they are and cleaning the cage is such a

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Forgiveness is the fragrance tt flowers emit when they are trampled upon.Never realised that flowers were so amazing.I wanna be like that. :)

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Need...More...Exercise....It has to be this week! RaWr!

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My spanky new digital piano arrived today. *happy*My childhood dream is partially fulfilled. It still sounds different from the real thing, but this will do for now.I always wanted to learn how to play since I was young. I guess circumstances did not allow me to.My dad asked me today why I never mentioned it before, my mum retorts that I have been wanting to learn for the longest time since my

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I think i'm one step closer...I think i just need more assurance.

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Why is it that I should feel elated but am not?Why is it that I make a correct guess everytime?Why is it that I feel disappointed?Why is it that you don't understand?I'm sorry.

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I'm jus a fallible human bean. And it's getting harder and harder to focus. Maybe keeping my distance will make it better.lack of sleep really puts me in a bad mood, tt explains a little of what happened then. I must rememeber to be nice. jus smile.At times I just wanna scream at somebody so that I can release some frustration but I know that's an evil thing to do. And sometimes i feel like

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If it's meant to be. Y am i distracted?

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I'm waiting again. That is not a good sign. Must. not. let. thots. run. wild.It's the feeling tt i cannot shake. The yearning for that euphoric high.The good thing is, day-dreaming never comes true. hooray!Oddly I want to feel conflicted.

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Now that i'm back to normal, i've returned to my nasty self.Gotta keep my curtness and smartass remarks to myself. Learning when to shut my mouth and try to listen more.And not forgetting to keep the negativity away.I think it's time to think abt the future and what to do with my life. Probably abit late but it's ok. I have'nt got down to realising my dreams of learning how to play the piano.

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Everythings fine now...I'm ok. =)I'm not ready. because I'm not content. I want more. So as not to regret.So that I can trust myself for life.If one day i ever end up hurt you, pls forgive me.

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Trying to scramble outta my little shell. Somehow i got lost.I think it went down hill when I lost all remnants of my confidence and perhaps a little of my sanity. The thought of standing infront of a moving vehicle to avoid my circumstance did cross my mind. The notion that there's no way out of my circumstances was so overpowering. And a big blow came when I felt that even my Lord has forsaken

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It's hard to be optimistic nowadays.Still trying to find my purpose and drive in life.Another day...

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While I'm feeling abit better, I shall remind myself that there is more to life than work. I should be content and make the best out of it.Happy chinese niu year everyone!

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I'm tired and unhappy.Stupid place.

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My new year resolutions are... still pending. I know they're along the lines of health, happiness and kindness.

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Currently, suffering from withdrawal symptoms due to lack of pork. =(

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What you are is God's gift to you.What you become is your gift to God...ain't tt nice?Be positive. Be positive. Be positive.My mantra for the month.

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Tomorrow is a new beginning...I hope everything works out okay.

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I had an exciting weekend. Jumping with arms flailing to the beat during wdo 2008 left me with muscle aches all around. Man i can't feel my legs. But it's so fun, especially when you're doing it with friends. And having a chance to be at the flyer takes the weekend experience to a whole new level. =PPlus.. i bought meself a green bag. my brother said "y u buy an army green bag?" 0.0 The lighting

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Getting a second chance is swaying my resolve. I close my eyes and imagine what it would be like. It would have been good.But... I think 'could' would have to be a better word for now.I pray that i made the right choice.

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It shldn't have to be this difficult.

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I think after passing a certain age, having your birthday pass becomes rather dreadful. Every year after the 21st I have been trying to make the most out of the day but it always ends up being ordinary and peaceful. And it's nice to hear from friends you usually do not meet with. I guess being ordinary and peaceful is actually a blessing. So I declare birthday month! Spent my brunch at McDs

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Strengths: Good team player. I play the percussion instruments in the chinese orchestra. If i'm not a good team player, no one else gets heard.I'm unhappy today because i forgot to put onions in my korroke n they tasted like crap. All the hard work gone down the drain. And i didn't get to carry a lantern. =(

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I forgot to take picture of the nice finished product the last time, so I did it again, this time i tried again with half the amount of sugar and also green tea too hohoho! おいしい。

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Inspired by thisChoc-strawberry snow-skin mooncake.. yum.I attempted to make Cappuccino cheese jelly mooncake. Took it the recipe off the internet. I need more jelly moulds. I'm too tired to type long sentences. So here are a few pix. First you do the cheese filling... the mould is supposed to be for making yolks but because my mould is abit kecik, so I made them fillings instead. Filling is made

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Somewhere along the line i jus became ordinary.Somewhere along the line i distanced myself from everyone.Somewhere along the line i just lost myself.Somewhere down the line i think i will succumb to the pressure.Jus leave me alone.

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Just the other day i was tasked by my mum to get spring onions and me being vegetable-illiterate bought chinese chives aka gu chai instead. So I had to think of how to get rid of them. Since, throwing them away is too wasteful, no one I knew would want it if i gave it away, the only other alternative was to 'cook them away'. What would dish would include gu chai?What came to mind were stir fried/

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Feeling all psyched from korroke aka croquettes cravings i decided to satiate myself by making my own. Of course, with the guidance of food blogs/websites. You'd be surprised how many food blogs are there providing excellent pictorial and narrative guides for cooking. Hurrah! After sourcing around I decided to make the simplest one the potato & meat korroke, although one day i'd like to try the

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I spent my day feeling demoralised.On the flip side, this has gotta be the hardest assessment there is to take, fighting fatigue, cluelessness and a huge headache.as for future assessments, bring it on!If i dun like it, there's no use forcing myself to like it. Next.

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life goes on x100.although i do feel sad when i think abt it, I think i can sweep things under my bed. If i don't think i won't feel. one day is enuff mourning.I'll take it as learning how to be in control of my social weather. I accept tt there are things that I cannot be in control of but my emotions i can.perhaps i was too good at that it the past, to the point of being nonchalent.Tmr is going

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It's hard to speak the truth,but it's always appreciated.

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I'm feeling abit excited. I think i've found one, although i do feel less than qualified. But. Take me take me! I'm secretly afraid of rejection that is why i haven't been applying more ambitiously.I need...to get a new printer to print resumes. =.="to alter my black pants.to read the papers.to pick up a course.to be more ambitious.I want...to buy a new bag, new shoes, new skirt.to work

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I've been slacking too long, been getting too comfortable doing nth, although i still have this constant nagging feeling to do something useful. Been a while after my 'several' grad trips, shall put up a few photos once i'm done sorting them all. Yesterday my mum made me cook, or rather forced me to learn how to cook so. Below are the steps to cook a simple vegetable(will find out the name of the

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Back from taiwan.I'm blessed to be able to do so many things...Time for the next part of my journey~Things will wrk out jus fine.

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the world hates me part II.I'm having a cold war. And i haven't open my mouth to speak for the whole day, save for grunts when told dinner is ready. Yes, tt's how super mature i am.today is self-inflicted torture, rocks my socks. I wonder whether i can still master the art of speech and faking happiness. hello hello?don't feel like going anywhere wif anyone.

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I'm so angry now, i think i could burst.Why do u always do this to me.Why do u keep asking me, when u want a set answer i cannot give, and refuse to give.Why do u make me hate myself for saying things that i really mean.Why do u come to such stupid conclusions.I'm so freaking glad i'm leaving tmr.Although i know i'd regret it throughout the seven days. that so screws my tripToday is a bad day,

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cough cough go away,come again...never.sucky cough. how to eat shilin chix like tt?!I can imagine going to the nite markets and telling the auntie "No fried, no chicken, no egg, no chilli, no pepper. Thank u."well there is still orh mee sua w/o orh... hmm..

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i'm back frm the land of the rising sun! Actually been back for 3 days already. Anyway i throughly enjoyed myself. Because of the company, the sights, and basked in the majestic glory of Mt Fuji. It was totally worth it, even if i had to walk one hour in the japan rain. An unforgettable experience is what i would call it. I would do a day by day breakdown of what happened, but i'm lazy! maybe

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Ellen Degeneres is eeeevil, she put this song in my head when i was watching her show:shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)boots with the fur (with the fur)the whole club was lookin at hershe hit the flo (she hit the flo)next thing u knoshawty got low low low low low low low lowthem baggy sweat pantsand the reeboxs with the straps (with the straps)she turned around and gave that big booty a

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Jus cannot be myself.In certain situations and when talking to certain people.And i've established it's jus me and my barrier. It's not that we don't click, it's just that i'm somehow restricted by some unexplanable force of nature. har dee har.Hence i will avoid all psychologically uncomfortable positions and put a stop to this.Although. i just wish to be friends, really.

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So many things have past.My final and only exam paper for this semester, for my undergraduate life.My M'sia-it's-not-so-fun-cos-i've-got-diarrhoea-trip, but assam laksa was good so i don't regret going.Next up... nippon~You know how sometimes people seem so happy and you jus wanna break them up, cos you don't want them to have wad u can't. hurhur.

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Finally it's over. The questions fired at us weren't all unexpected but there were some that did throw us off a little. But we managed to get by that of course with help from the sup.Yet, i still have the nagging feeling that the tasks are not complete. Until after everything is submitted will I feel relief.Caught a movie with my group after that, met this super bitch who was very rude to us but

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I had enjoyed myself today.It's not the place that makes the day, it's the company.Suddenly worried abt the most unexpected thing... the economic situation. Media does instill fear. But in a way that's their role too, to educate and awaken apathetic people.One more day.

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Disappointed.Jus hate the feeling of waiting in vain.

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Phantom Limb: the sensation that an amputated or missing limb is still attached to the body and is moving appropriately with other body partsPhantom limb pain: pain appearing to come from where an amputated limb used to be – is often excruciating and almost impossible to treat Phantom hair: the sensation that "amputated" hair is still attached and is moving appropriately with other body

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Update on my money saving plan for the month of March. Planned to save: 7 per day x 31 days = $217Total saved: $97+-..- erm... quite far from planned, but i acknowledge that 7 per day is abit unrealistic, so for this month I'll aim for $6 bucks a day!Have to fulfill another pact for this month too. *wink wink*Go go go~

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Do you know that swimming has a therapeutic effect?At least it does for me. xPIt relieved me of my headache. (which came back subsequently once i stared at my fweep report)Perservere!On another note, I have to talk about my pet peeve.I hate ppl who smoke while riding a bicycle. For starters when u're smoking one hand is off the handle bars and I have this fear tt the cyclist would lose control of

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Me need jogging real bad but i don't like jogging alone. =(My saving plan isn't really working out. But... I shall persist, I'm half a month through.I still feel like learning something new. dancing?eff why pee ending soon.

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Unwilling to offer such material because of all the time spent on creating it, unhappy with it jus being treated like a template.BUT...Taking comfort in the knowledge tt it'll prbly survive the test of time and be passed down from age to age. Tt's how gd it is! xP Means my efforts pay off but jus not acknowledged later on. My blood and sweat poured into the three years.Nevermind la.Woe is

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I'm still awake! woopie.High on fyp. Still haven't figured out models.Tomorrow would be a better attempt.I'm 17 dollars behind my grand plans.But it's alright, today and yesterday was worth it. I hope the concert goes smoothly tmr. Will be observing from a different vantage point. hungry again...

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10 weeks to save money for the trip.That would mean 10x7=70 days.If i want to save 500 for spending i would have to save 500/70=7.20 a day.hmm... sounds, impossible. no more movies, ktv, and eating out! Shall restrict myself to 2.50 per meal and walk home instead of taking the bus. As if tt's possible. XPPlease encourage me to save, thank u very much.

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Went for my first job interview for the year, and I saw my favourite ang moh! wee~ *heart flutters* As of now I still don't know what I would like to do. =( Do assignments & fyp first, I say.If all goes well, I'll be going to the land of the rising sun! yay! Hole in the pocket of course.

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tired. argh my eyes.Her expectations will never be reached.No matter what I do she'll find something negative to say.Jus do wad i can and try to shut my smart mouth up.I'm not going to spoil my kids.

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Had funny dreams a few days back, forgot them till I was reminded by a mention of someone's name.how easy it is to forget.Spread good news to 30 lucky people today. Recieved replies for almost half within a day. Imagine if it was news to pay taxes, i'll be lucky to recieve 5 acknowledgements. If i were them, i'd be quick to reply too. And i'd feel lucky for the whole day. Hope i get good karma

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Today is the day of making wrong choices.From the choice of bus that never came, to the choice i made of not topping up my farecard to realise that i have no stored value and have to 'beg' for change. To be late. To speaking too much. To deciding too late. Great.I hope I did not make another wrong decision.What is that feeling? insecurity.

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I'm so happy and grateful for so many things today. For postponement of my presentation,For gd assignment grades,For the SMSes that remind me that i'm still a friend to them,For the candies from sheya,For the lovely Gerbera's from wenyi,For everyone who helped me look for my wallet,For the nice person who found my wallet, and emailed me so quickly,For porky who makes everything ay ok. =)

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Everyone needs abit of cheering up now and then. Stay happy.The case of the missing bak kwa is still unsolved.

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Happy Lunar New year!Here's a Chryssie update. D22See the flowers have bloomed!My parents say i'm mad because I talk to Chryssie everyday. wee~

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I'm not particularly feeling the festive mood, nor am I feeling happy that CNY is coming. Not really prepared for it, haven't bought any new clothes. I've cleared my room, but now that it's cleaner, the fact that dust and hair accumulates so quickly I would say within a day of vacuuming and wiping, bloody pisses me off. I'm compelled to vacuum and wipe every inch i see too frequntly, I predict an

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Chryssie has grown. That's the only good news today.

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Did you know that "Dust in homes, offices, and other human environments is mainly generated by humans from their skin cells that slough off." (wiki source) Ew ew ew, double ew, triple ew. Which means i have been living and breathing my dead skin cells for 8 year. Ew.I need an air filter to replace me pronto.

tabnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3883684.post-74575054427498253692008-01-21T00:35:00.000+08:002008-01-21T00:41:53.593+08:00

Meet Chryssie! My pet plant. Day 2.Saw her at a pasar malam where they sold pots and pots of plants. After much deliberating I picked Chryssie, with much help from porky, because i'm very picky and fickle. As you can see she's got bright yellow buds which make me feel all sunny and happy.I hope she blooms before chinese new year. Maybe i'll get her a friend soon.But for now...I'm a mum of a MUM!

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Empty promises of meeting up in the future. Of hanging out sometime, of having a meal sometime, of going out together sometime.Everytime i say 'okae' to people who ask to meet soon, in my heart of hearts I know the chance of that happening is very slim.Is it jus you being polite?I hold no hopes.

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The days are passing by too quickly.First few days of the year were spent in Hongkong, shenzhen, zhuhai than Macau. I would say even though it's a short trip, I got to see many things. From how different people look and behave even though their all considered PRC citizens. The different living conditions, the extreme luxurious furnishing of the casinos and tried my hand at littering blatantly and

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Happy 2008!~ Had a good new year, count down wif the tv, saw the row of firewrks in m'sia. No need for all the squeezingQuiet but wonderful. Just sitting and absorbing everything in the comfort of home.Thank you for a wonderful year.Here's to another.

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I felt shocked, to be treated in such a manner.such a nice manner.Maybe my standards of "nice" is jus way too low.This sounds very juvenile but, all guys should be like that.

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Pleasent x'mas. =)today a huge car pass drove passed me and in it was a lady driver. And instantly a thought flashed through my mind. "i wanna be like her. Earn my own money, drive a big car." Then again...

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Argh. Haven't raised my voice for so long.Angry. I was trying to hard to keep it in, trying to be what you want me to be.And then you dump all the shit at me.Just when i've resolved to be nicer, i blew my top. Not a pretty sight. Not a filial move.Roar.

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Falling sick sucks.Falling sick during the holidays suck more.Not really been doing anything except sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. My stamina has dropped so much because of this. It's only after a bout of sickness do I realise how impt health is.Begging for an interview also sucks. HURHUR. I remind myself that think abt it in this way. I'd need more than convincing to oblige to an interview

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Me not happy.Pork deficiency syndrome.but...luckily i got some company. =/Backache frm sitting too long on the cold hard floor.My dad's not back yet why why why?Why is everyone not back?

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I can't find my tv remote! *hyperventilate*My world comes crashing down.TV is my life. It keeps me company when i'm alone in the house, even if i mute it while i do other stuff, the flickering image is a good companion. Keeps me awake.bad tv monster... return my remote, so tt i can be sucked into it.where's porkus? =(

tabnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3883684.post-80954329645189071242007-12-06T11:49:00.000+08:002007-12-06T11:50:12.723+08:00

"ronery... i am so roneryy... i haf nobody..."Lalala.. wanna go out now!

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This layout has no timestamp! It jus lumps all my posts written in a day in a lump. *gasp* horrors of horror. No gd. Change template i shall... soon. when i feel like it. again.So many things to learn so little time.I wanna learn how to photoshop, dance, cook, play games, draw, html, code.okae no maybe i need to learn how to not procrastinate first.I need more meaning in life. Grr.Maybe i shall..

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I...Am happy to be alive.I...Am searching for my happiness.I...Am thankful for so many things.

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today i saw u in sch. finally. I knew i'd see u today, actually hoped to.But i instinctively looked away.wish i didn't.I never got a close look.Now i'm not sure whether i really did see you.how r u doing? i wonder.Doesn't really make sense because u'd never ask the same abt me.*sulk*

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ew.I dunno how i'm gonna survive. Survive the negativity.am very not happy."So it's intuition for u"I can almost hear the thot bubbles read "what a dumbass".Behave to fit the opinion, I am the perfect example of demand characteristics.

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Rainy day spoils plans.Plans saved by superhero.

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Busy.being busy is a good thing.So is being free.Accidently falling asleep while reading, just means i get more sleep. Doesn't mean i lose time. I keep repeating that to myself and hopefully it'll sink in.

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Weird weird feeling of happiness....of not having to walk home myself....of closure to the day....of chance coincidences....of just that feeling.

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I do feel abit empty at times. A big change to break away from that life.need to do something more to replace that.I stared at the sky from the train on my way to school and I never noticed how big and blue it was. And i wondered whether anyone is thinking abt the sky, just as i was.I'm but a speck in this wide universe.

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I think i've been less than accomodating. I jus cannot put up with any more pretence. Especially when i feel like a sounding board more than anything else. Everything i say, carries no weight unless it's in accordance with opinions you want affirmation for. As much as i know that it is a much needed process to go through, I just don't think i can go through that "monologue". Now i know how i

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hiccup.Another week has passed. Nth accomplished. Disappointed.Things that i set out to do are always not fulfilled. shucks.On the flipside, i breathed 2 weekends worth of fresh air.

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A big thank you to the well-wishers. I really appreciate it. Not forgetting the presents~ wee~ presents =PTo feel special for 1 out of the 365 days in a year.I think the sweetest thing today is to see the bowl of sweet noodles with an egg that my mum cooked for me bright and early in the morning. aw.beats everything hands down.

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How horrid. to be reduced to tears at the stroke of midnight.

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I just need a little bit more assurance. a little more persuasion. a little more life.Am feeling ostracised. I think i got hit by case of mild paranoia.Who cares what ppl think.Who cares what ppl say.Is this what i really want?vexed.Frustrated!What do i want?Not tt i don't want to go back. It's just this reluctance to face myself and what i've left behind. I feel like i'm responsible.Ppl jus

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You have no idea how relieved i felt.I needed time to think, and i was given the answer.Now... I have to decide.hoorah.

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Ah hah! i jus had to put music which go on an irritating infinite loop on my blog... sigh.Sleep. that's wad i need. =(

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My future is bleak. what if...Then what?one day at a time.I've run out of them.Reclusiveness. slowly disappear.

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I needed the breather.Even if it comes in the form of physical exhaustion. Dunno how long i can keep this up.A new found respect for a person who aims and works towards his goal. i wish i was like tt.

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Me sho tired. part II. But i caught up wif my pri sch friend on my way back. That was a nice end to the day. always love a good chat. And i learnt something new. grip. point. bounce.

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well... if ppl don't want your help, they won't ask for it. and tts tt.It's ultimately their call. I do worry. But for what reason i do not understand. It's time to let go of so many things. Focus on what's impt. 1 week challenge!

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Me. So. Tired. =( and. unhappy.pfft.

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argh. I'm gonna burst! --"As i listened to the nat day rally speech today about the c*f change, i was hit with the stark realisation that I'm going to die eventually. N i felt a sudden fear of what it would be like to suddenly kick the bucket.And the finality of life makes whatever i'm doing now seem meaningless. What exactly am i doing?The only thing i know is tt i gotta start planning for my

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Blood pressure sky rockets... Need to get out of here.I need a holiday away from everything. jus after my long holiday. Doesn't anybody think further?argh.Feeling like the only worried person.

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Something is missing.The something that i cannot pinpoint. The uncertainty tt keeps me on tenterhooks. The bugging that doesn't let me sleep in peace.Gotta get my act together.First by trashing my things.Still feeling under the weather.I strongly believe that your current mood is positively correlated to your general health and vice-versa. That is my hypothesis, regardless of how stupid it sounds

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I'ma going on a summer holiday, no more worries for a week or two...Bye world.2nd chance for you, big red dot wif a star, i better have a smashing good time or else i'll blog about you to death.Feelin blessed jus to see you today. The fact that you travelled all the way.however, the fact tt i'm going to you know where conjures unpleasent memories.When i come back, it's just gonna be a barrage of

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i must confess. I've been secretly reading my primary school crush friend's blog. N it's fun to be a voyeur.Reading abt wad he does and wad his life is like, his current squeeze, knowing that he lives just a few blks away makes it oh so exciting. It helps that he's a good writer.If he finds out that i'm spying, he probably would change his blog address or something. =xI don't think he remembers

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